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Junkyangelica
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Gender: Female
Interests: I am into psychology, philosophy, astronomy, scuba diving and music. I enjoy watching the idiot box and solving problems. I love animals and am a very adventurous person.
Expertise: I am good at solving problems and philosophizing. I talk a lot, very few people i've met could out talk me.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Research
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8/15/2004
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| i don't adhere to any beliefs regarding past life or after life. i read this book, it gave me ideas. the message in the book told its readers to be open. why is it so hard to believe in anything at all? some people scoff at others who believe in aliens. some people think astrology is hogwash. some people think God created the world. some people think we evolved from monkeys. it is such an old question with infinite answers. Who is right? i have come to realize that humans want to be right about something more than anything else. They would sacrifice everything just to be right. it is open to debate of course, what's right and wrong. it's not just about ethics or principles. it's tiring. it's boring. i don't know. anyway, the book talks about past life regression therapy, where under hypnosis, a person would remember who they were in previous lives. that is incredible. it also went along the lines that people who're associated with us in this life are people who were related to us in our previous lives and who had unfinished business with us. that's really quite Tao. now, everyone i meet, i wonder if they were in any relation to me in my previous life, if i had one. but lets all not ridicule or be so skeptical about the different beliefs in this world. there may be some truth in lies. and vice versa. so i randomly did this, i went to this website called Past Life Analysis - which i found by typing in "past life" in Google. i am requested to key in my birthdate and they will generate some random ramblings about my past life that goes like this: Your past life diagnosis:
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Yukon around the year 875. Your profession was that of a philosopher and thinker.
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Timid, constrained, quiet person. You had creative talents, which waited until this life to be liberated. Sometimes your environment considered you strange.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
It always seemed to you that your perceptions of the world are somewhat different. Your lesson is to trust your intuition as your best guide in your present life.
Do you remember now? you know what, i really believe what it says. but i would imagine i'm some Greek Goddess in the past as well. playing my harp and bathing by the pool where Adonis fell in love with his reflection. that really vain SOB. i would be a muse if i were to have a past life. Who are you in your past life? | | |
| I had no plans except “to lead my own life." in order to do that i had to“get off the track." this metaphorical track i visualised very precisely as an endless stretch of steel rails on rotting sleepers. you were born onto a certain track, as a train is put on its run according to the timetable; and once on the track, you no longer had free will. your life was determined...by outside forces;the rail of steel, stations, shunting points. if you accepted that condition, running on rails became a habit which you could no longer break. the point was to jump off the track before the habit was formed, before you became encased in rattling prison. to change the metaphor: reason and routine kept people in a straitjacket which made their living flesh rot beneath it.-Arthur Koestler（1905-1983）
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| People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis,
it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway. - Mother Teresa / Kent M. Keith "The Paradoxical Commandments" | | |
| well, what do you think? that was my attempt at writing fiction. didn't quite hit it? i was thinking along those lines like those of Sweet Valley High kind of stuff. But this is like a short story. If there is an uncanny resemblance to the story of your life, don't be alarmed, i am sure lots of people go through what you've been through and it's a pretty generic experience. I will try again later. I will work harder. Besides, crap books like Harry Potter received phenomenal feedback, why not me? hahaha. I think above all else, I love my optimism.
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| Tracy
I asked her, so how are things now? And she said somewhat absently, It's okay. Everything is fine. I wonder what's going through her mind right now. It's been a month since the incident. I am so mad at him for doing this to her. But can't blame him, he's always lonely. I believe that people have this loneliness radar. Some people are less lonely than others. Some people are always okay on their own. They enjoy their own company or they only need maybe 2 persons in their lives to be fulfilled. Some people need millions. Some people just crave attention from every little thing they have their eyes on. So I can't possibly blame him. People do have needs. She did intend to keep her virginity until marriage. He is a very horny bastard. So how would that work out without infidelity? I personally can't imagine. I worry about her sanity. But I guess she's keeping up fine.
Daria
People think that I'm weak for forgiving him. People think that I'm so stupid to let him get away with his cheating ways. But I believe that those people who's been cheated on by their partners would do exactly what I did. Of course I am furious. Of course I feel betrayed. But I love him too. I believe that love conquers all and some day he would realize that I'm the only one who can love him and be devoted to him like I do. In fact, I feel very courageous for letting him into my life again. I don't want to feel helpless anymore. I am not going to think about when he's going to do it again or who he is going to do it with again because there is no end to it. I think it is important for me to just show him that I accept his flaws and who he is as a person. I love him so much and I don't think I want to be with anyone else but him. I have spent so much time with him and he's such a charming person. I do intend to lose it to him but it's just that we have to be married first. That is how it should be. But I don't understand why he can't seem to respect my decision. I don't understand why he can't wait for me. Isn't our love strong enough? Didn't I show him that I care? Doesn't he love me anymore?
Harry
People think that I'm evil. At least her friends do. But they don't understand why I did it. I am not trying to justify my cheating ways. I was not really cheating because I only went out with Jolene after we took a time out. It's not that I don't love her anymore. It's just that feelings are just different now. It's not so intense as before. But with Jolene it's different. She's beautiful, smart, witty, sexy and confident. Everything I ever wanted from a girl. Before I knew it, I'm in love. I started having a crush on her the minute I saw her face. I don't know, some people ignore these feelings. Some people pretend that they don't exist. I don't know. But how can you fight something that is so real? When we went out for the first time, I thought that was the happiest day of my life. I don't think I have felt anything like that in a long long time. But happy times never last. Fairy tales never do. The affair ended no later than how it began. I was crushed, literally. I feel like the biggest fool ever. I have a devoted girlfriend who is madly in love with me and I threw it away for a girl who just wanted to fuck around with me. I felt so stupid. But I really thought it was over between Daria and me. I mean, I thought she was the one. But now I'm not so sure. I love her but I just don't know if I'm in love with her anymore.
Samantha
I think what happened between Harry and Daria is totally messed up. She's like a dumb bitch who deserves to be slapped across the face to put up with what he did. He is the ultimate jackass for pulling one like that. Honestly, if that happened to me, I would hunt that slutty bitch down and let her know NEVER to mess with my man. But that is before I fucking kill the bastard for cheating on me. I think my ego would be so bruised, like why the hell do u need to go to another girl for? Am I not enough for you? Am i not good enough? sexy enough? hot enough? smart enough? pretty enough? what? I don't know what Daria is thinking. But whatever it is, she's proven that she's a total fucktard. Think about it for one second, would he be as forgiving if SHE had gone out with another man? Men and their ego. It's permissable for them to do it, but not for the woman. What double standards. I don't know why she bothers putting up with him? Does she believe that he's really going to be able to offer her anything she wants in the future? But does she even know what she wants for herself? We all know what women want. They want someone whom they can trust, they can love and depend upon. They want to be treated with respect and humility. What did he do? He humiliated her. Made a fool out of himself and her. She's so pathetic to allow this all to happen to her. The way she handled it shows how weak she is. She should get up and leave because he doesn't deserve her. Honestly, when a partner cheats, he's really crying out that he wants to escape. So do the right thing, and let him go.
Jolene
I think he has a girlfriend. But that's okay. I'm not really the jealous type. People think I'm a bitch for messing with attached guys. But hey, don't blame me, they are the ones who took the bait. Besides, I really didn't do anything to even attract him. Not on purpose. I have seen guys like him around. You know, in a long-term relationship that is really dull, sex life that's non-existent, feeling the same-old same-old. Don't get me wrong, I think it's sweet to be in a long-term relationship when you find the right person, but then things can get a little bit routined and totally boring. I think I'm the best thing that happened to him. But I'm not really into a serious relationship right now, at least not with him. He is such a sweet guy. I did enjoy my time with him. But I never thought about him that way, not in the long run. I hope we still can be friends. It's nothing serious. I hope no body got hurt or anything. It's just me, out to have some real good fun, that's all.
Tania
I didn't think it would happen to her. I mean, she's such a darling. She's like the best girlfriend ever. She'd do anything for her man. I really couldn't see why he would cheat on her. I really want her to be happy. I mean, I won't judge her taste in men, it's okay for her to be with whomever she wants, as long as she is happy. But now I am wondering, can she truly be happy with him now? Is she strong enough to really put this behind them? I don't know what I would do if Mark cheated on me. Would I have done the same? Stuck by my man? Beg him to take me back? Leave that woman and come back to me? or would I try to kill myself? I don't know how I would react to this. I have a friend who slit her wrist after catching her boyfriend with another woman. He is known as a compulsive cheater. They are now "happily married". So who knows what would happen in the future? I hope I don't have to go through what these women went through. Dear God, please do not tempt my man with other women and if You do, please give him strength to choose the right path (ie: me) and please give him self-control to contain the lust he has for the beauty that lures him. Amen.
Johnny
I can only watch when she cries. I can only watch her helplessly staring into space. I know it is killing her. It is killing me. Why wouldn't she leave the bastard? Why must she put up with a fuckhole who couldn't appreciate her? Why can't she see that I'm here for her? Why can't she see that I can love her and offer her my love more than anyone in this world? Am I not good enough for her? Am I not good looking enough? Am i not rich enough? Am i not steady enough? I told her that I love her and I always will. But she wouldn't hear a word of it. She would laugh in my face and say, oh John you're such a sweetheart, but you and I will only be best friends forever. I don't want to be just best friends. I want to be her man. I want to be her everything. If only she would give me a chance. I know it's so fucking cliched, it's disgusting. I disgust myself. When I see her sad, a part of me dies a little. It's true. People think it's gross or pathetic. But I really feel it. My limbs go limp. There are days when I long to see her face. There are days that I long for her touch and a phone call from her really lightens up my day. But I guess all I can do is wait. Maybe someday she will realize I was here for her all along. She will then learn to love me the way she should and the way I deserve to be loved. Yeah, right.
Matthias
I think Harry is totally out of line this time. I know I am in no position to sound him because it's his life and he has every right to do whatever he pleases. Besides, it's not a crime. He tells me how unsatisfied he is in the relationship. So I told him off, I said, be a man, dude, don't take the easy way out. Just tell her how you feel and be done with it if you don't want it anymore. But if you think it's still worth saving, then why don't you try something new and make it up to her? After all, you've been together for such a long time, you can tell her anything right? He looked at me like I just gave him the dumbest idea ever. Then I asked him, is this about sex? He was like, what the hell does it look like? He's not about to tell me. He's embarrassed I think because everyone knows his girlfriend has made a public declaration that she's not going to lose it until marriage. He probably feels like the biggest sex-deprived moron ever on the face of the earth. But he still has his hands. I wonder how far he actually went with her? Second-base? Third? Has he actually felt her boobs and suckle on her nipples? I wouldn't know. Anyway, what really constitutes a virgin? Haven't had a dick in her? or Haven't been touched in any sexual way? Should look that up somewhere, like in the Bible. Haha. But whatever it is, I still think he's a total asshole for pulling one like that on her. But he's my friend, so I'm not going to say anything.
Sasha
I've always known Harry as a horny bastard. I mean he wanted it all the time when we were together. I enjoyed the times we had together, but then we were so young then, what do we know about love? I eventually gave him whatever he wanted, well, and got some in return too. It's not like as though I'm Virgin Mary. Trust me, I'm not. It was not surprising at all that he cheated on Daria. He has this insatiable need for attention I think. He is like a child, always trying to get whatever he wants. He is sweet, he tries to coax his way into getting it. But I think, with her, he just gave up mid way since he knew he's really never going to get it from her unless they get married or some miracle happened. I really think he's a truly lucky man for being with her. But then again, maybe unlucky too if he's not getting any? Well, lucky because never in a million years he would get a girl like her. She's like up there, and he's like pond scum. Hey, I don't mean to say I dated a pond scum. It was a mutual seperation for us. I just never thought he was her type. She belongs to those goody-goody..studious, virgin boys. But I guess it's true what they say, Good Girls are just better Liars.
Carrie
My son is a good man. I heard about how he had problems in his relationship with his girlfriend. I prayed for him. I advised him to be resilient. I advised him to listen to his heart. I know she's a good catch. Among all the girls that he brought home, this one I know is way out of his league. I know my son. She is way too good for him. Too good to be true. But they were strong together. I understand it's normal to have hiccups in any relationships. I think it is difficult for him to share his problems with me too. Maybe he is embarrassed or maybe he feels inadequate if he reveals those issues to me. But I really want him to know that I will be here and I'm all ears whenever he needs me. She is a lovely child. Pleasing to the eye and pleasing to the elderly. Even my parents love her. That is rare. It is rare to see children these days have such respect for the elderly. She is really very well brought up by her parents. I can see her being my beloved daughter-in-law. I pray every night that they would be together always. She would make my son a very happy man.
Nate
From the day my daughter introduced him to me, I already have a bad feeling about him. I don't know how well he is treating my daughter now, but she has been looking pretty distant lately. She thinks I don't notice, but I know sometimes when she is crying in her room. He doesn't look like he cares about her. But I am not too sure. I try not to think about it too much because once I start interfering in my daughters affairs, I fear that I might come on too strong and she would end up retreating even further. Our relationship is strong. We respect and love each other. She never misses a curfew and she always listens to what I advised. A very good child. I don't understand why she has such taste in men. He has yet to prove that he is worthy for my daughter. But then that is all right because after all, it is her first love and it is reasonable for her to experiment in love. You have to be with a few bad apples to actually find a good one. I pray for her happiness every day. I just want her to make the right choices and lead a good life.
Anna
I understand why my daughter behaves that way. She thinks she can hide things like that from me. But I know what she is up to. I just don't confront her about it. A mother is psychic. I know what she is like and it is very characteristic of her to stick by her man for whatever reason. I don't know what he did, but it must be pretty serious because they have broken up and this time I really thought they are finished. But then it turns out, they are back together again. So then I guess nothing cannot be solved. I don't always agree with what my husband does, but I guess he is the man of the house, so I will just let him be. Being a woman, it is our duty to be more tolerant, more giving and more loving than our male counterparts. We have to learn all of those. If we want to change our partners, we should first change ourselves. Here is one of my favourite quotes from the Bible:
Love suffers long, and is kind; love does not envy; love does not
parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek
its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity,
but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes
all things, endures all things. Love never fails.... And now abide
faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love. I Corinthians 13:1-2
So if I were to tell my daughter one thing, it would be to stay strong and have faith that things will improve for the better. But she is a smart girl, she will know what is right in the end.
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